My husband and I don’t have family nearby; his relatives are mainly in the Buffalo, New York area and mine are scattered from Kansas to Texas to Arizona. One of the unexpected bonuses of working at Trinity is that I get to meet and get to know people here. I get to connect with people who are at all different stages of life, from my friend Bella, whose sunny ten-year-old exuberance shines light into my world as we sit together on Sunday mornings; to 91-year old Sue, who is one of our multi-talented, multi-tasking volunteers whose gifts and talents enrich Trinity in a variety of ways.
One day recently I had the chance to chat with Sue about her earliest childhood memories related to gardening, one of her passions. She easily recalled her role in helping her mother plant green beans, strong beans and lima beans. She explained the process of “canning” the beans (in glass jars) and storing them in the ‘cold cellar’ across the lane so they could eat fresh vegetables even in the winter. In the ‘regular’ cellar under the house, you’d find root vegetables, like potatoes, sweet potatoes and carrots--- ready for the taking, year ‘round. She described the smokehouse where cuts of pork (butchered from her siblings’ 4-H pigs) would hang, before being wrapped in cloth and transferred to an upstairs room in their house, cold enough without electricity to keep the meat fresh. She said cheese and candy were special treats to be purchased from the store in town, about a mile and half’s walk away. Milk came from the neighbor’s cows which were allowed to ‘board’ at Sue’s parents’ property, though young Sue didn’t care for the taste of raw milk.
Sue’s eyes shone when she described to me the clothes her mother sewed for her, as a youngster and then as a young woman headed off to college. The 6-piece wardrobe her mother cut and sewed by hand “made me feel like a princess,” says Sue. She offered to show me the one piece still in existence: a corduroy jacket she still wears (!!!)
Maybe the most surprising discovery of that particular conversation was when Sue told me how she met her husband in Venezuela: Oh, he wasn’t Venezuelan, she said,” he was a good ole Kansan.” “Kansas?!?!” I asked, incredulous. “Sue,” I told her,” I AM FROM KANSAS!” She giggled. I asked where he was from, and she thought out loud, “Not Salina…” she began. “Sue,” I said,” I went to high school in Salina! We are probably related!”
And that’s how I gained an Aunt Sue.
It’s normal to feel a bit of a let-down after Christmas, right? People are gone, the house is a mess, the office is quiet, I count how many calories are in a Christmas cookie and how many cookies I ate… and stop counting…
I wonder if that isn’t an important piece of the Christmas experience? That lull after the hubbub of the holiday? We had stars and angels and wise men and a baby…So, now what? Well, not being a theologian, my take on this next part goes like this:
Now, we act.
Now, while the baby is growing and learning and preparing for his ultimate purpose, so should we.
Now, in this post-holiday blur, we tend to what’s in front of us. We clean up the mess, we get back to the gym, we reconnect with the everyday and we continue on our path leading to our ultimate purpose. We set about tidying our corner of the world to make it more heaven-like, here and now. God’s arrived on earth: now we need to clean the place up for his presence. We don’t dust and sweep and polish because he needs a clean spot: we make the effort together so we see what’s in store for us. We create God’s kingdom right here, right now, with the people around us. We honor them by putting our best foot forward; by offering to share our food and whatever we have.
Charities all over the world experience an influx of gifts and donations during the Christmas season---we suddenly remember the poor, the homeless, the hungry and the neglected. Now that we’re moving past the intensity of the holidays, those same challenges await. People need us all year ‘round. And we need them. Our paths are different but every one of us has challenges and disappointments and barriers. Walking together and sharing the load helps all of us.
The world needs you---and me--- and our energy now. This creating a version of God’s kingdom on earth takes work, it takes the skills of all of us. A place where we can all eat well and sleep in peace, where we can find meaning in our work and satisfaction in our efforts, where we can care for our families and laugh with our friends: that’s one version of heaven on earth, and it’s the work I think Jesus calls us to do. So by all means, take a breath. Recover from the hoopla. But don’t take too long. A kingdom awaits.
Like many of you, my days this time of year are filled with activity. The workplace of Trinity is no different. We’re just coming off Candlelight, with its choral and instrumental musicians opening the season of Advent. I may not have paid a lot of attention growing up, because I am only now starting to understand what “Advent” is: a season of waiting, anticipating and hoping for the arrival of Jesus.
As we wait, we are told to keep alert, to stay awake so that we do not miss his entrance. Now, how could we miss the gigantic, spectacular, light-and-life-giving event that will be the return of Jesus Christ?? Well….. let’s think about that. The first time he came to earth, he came as a baby, born in a stable. And while there was a bright star, it doesn’t sound like the whole globe resonated with the news of his birth. No big parades or feasts were held. It was fairly easy for the baby to slip unobserved into the world and its people.
I am sure I would know how to behave if a shining , larger-than-life celebrity King appeared. But how would I react if I saw a ‘regular’ guy? If we didn’t get the cues that THIS is our Savior? What if we just acted the way we acted whenever we cross paths with a stranger? Hmmm… now that might give me pause. Am I always as friendly, kind, generous and gracious as I could be, when facing someone I don’t know? And what are the odds He arrives on my “best day?” Will I be looking sharp and feeling fine? Or might I be rushing from one meeting to another, trying to accomplish my long “to-do” list? Is there a chance I would just nod at the person approaching me, as I talked into my cell phone? Could I MISS Jesus???
These are the thoughts that glide through my mind at this time of year.
So, I am trying to remain alert and to stay awake. You never know when we might have the chance to smile into the eyes of Jesus or to offer him a Christmas cookie, or to make room for him on the pew beside us. If that baby from the manager was a tired toddler waiting in line with his mother, or a teenager in a dirty coat at Target or the slightly wild-eyed woman trying to ask you for some change in the parking lot--- would we recognize Jesus?
It’s so tempting sometimes to want to just come to a lovely church service and sit quietly and soak up the peace. But I think we are told to keep alert and to stay awake so that we don’t get too comfortable. Christianity (to me) isn’t about being comfortable. It’s about seeing Jesus, right now, in all the people he loves. He’s giving us the chance to love him through them. I hope I am up to the task.
Recently, I was part of the group who participated in a poverty simulation, sponsored by Brightpoint and held here at Trinity. Everyone was assigned a character within a family unit—some families were large, some small, some had two parents, some were staying in a homeless shelter---the scenario covered a lot of possibilities.
Throughout the morning, we were directed to different situations ---maybe a parent lost a job or a car broke down. We had to continue with the expectations of living under a roof with enough food and heat, getting kids to school or childcare, and going through all the rigmarole of applying for various benefits and assistance.
Once the simulation was finished, participants were kind of shell-shocked. “I’m exhausted,” some said. “I’m irritated and confused,” said others. “How can they expect me to get to work when I have to get kids to doctors’ appointments and a car to the shop?” said one. One of the social service agency representatives noticed that as the simulation progressed, those of us portraying family members spoke more quickly, behaved more rudely, and became more desperate in our demeanor.
That was just after SIMULATING living in poverty for one morning. We realized a little sliver of the challenge it must be to live this way, day after day, when the weekends fly by so quickly and it’s impossible to get everything done you need to do for your family. The resources you need aren’t even available at the time you could access them. And no matter how much you may want to sit and ‘bond’ as a family, there is absolutely no time to be still and read to children or, in many cases, even to have a meal together. There is simply too much that must be done, must be figured out, in order to keep life moving fairly reliably. A great “unfairness” most of us experienced was the challenge of how expensive it is to be poor. If you received a shut off notice because you hadn’t paid your gas bill, you found that you owed that amount, PLUS re-connection fees and fines---so the money you didn’t have to pay for that heat bill is now increased… which made no sense.
We quickly understood how easy it would be to feel angry and worried and unheard. And for those of us in mock-family scenarios, we saw how much stress and worry the children could see and feel, and how much the adults wanted to keep them from seeing it. The smallest kindness or moment of grace was noticed and welcomed by those of us “in the trenches.”
The Brightpoint leaders were careful not to call this “a game,” ever mindful that life is difficult for many of our neighbors and making it into a “game” demeans and disrespects their experiences. The 45 or so participants that day seemed to leave with new insight, even of just being aware that we are not all living life under the same circumstances. Pastor Erdos, who participated in the simulation, volunteered almost immediately to host another session of the simulation as soon as it is feasible, to allow more people to experience life as many of our neighbors experience it. We learned a lot, but the most meaningful aspect of the day to me was witnessing how participants inhabited the roles they were playing, and assumed families were doing their best and trying hard. We don’t often get the opportunity to live life in someone else’s shoes, but my advice would be to take the chance if you get it. You learn about other people, but you learn more about yourself.
The chilly temperatures and gray, drizzly days are a sharp reminder that seasons are changing. Time is passing. The world is turning. It doesn’t seem so long ago that I didn’t give a lot of thought to the passage of time. That must have been because it was easier to lie about my age!
Yes, I said “lie.”
Yes, I work in a church.
Oh yeah, I lie (not often). I might even slip in a swear word now and then. I sure as heck struggle with making good choices on a consistent basis.
Recently I was lucky enough to be invited to a brunch where about a dozen people were there with the intention of talking about Religion. Faith. Church. God.
Some of the folks around the table were disconnected from organized religion, and I think some had been really damaged by past experiences with church. I might have been a bit of a curiosity for them: maybe I didn’t talk or act like what they expected a “Christian” to be. I hope they saw that I know I am a flawed human being, but that I am trying to love people the way I think Jesus wants us to do. Frequently I find myself thinking (and occasionally, saying out loud), "I’m not that kind of Christian." I get it: people hear things in the news and assume all of us who call ourselves Christian think, believe and behave alike.
Well, that just isn’t true.
I’m beyond trying to tell you why someone else is doing something in the name of Jesus. That’s for them to figure out. I will say that I think Jesus wants me to listen to people, to try to understand the things they say that confuse me, and to live into the love he has for them . My understanding of his expectation is that we don’t have “excepts”….. We are to love everyone, no exception. We welcome everyone, no exception. We see each other as equals, no exceptions. Each of us is deserving of God’s love, no exceptions. Everyone gets a seat at the table, no exceptions. It gets tricky, what with politics and prejudice and misunderstandings and old hurts, and fear.
So maybe, start small. Want to try an experiment with me?
Smile at everyone, no exceptions. See how that goes for you. Look people in the eye. It’s hard to ignore our shared humanity when we look into each other’s eyes. Let me know how it goes. I’m doing the same thing.
When we thought about a “back to school” effort for Trinity, we first contemplated how we could raise funds for back to school shoes---something we know every parent has to figure out for every student at this time of year. The logistics of the challenge overwhelmed us, however, and we tried to come up with another idea.
Since we are trying to focus on building and sustaining relationships, it made sense to think about our Study Connection partner school, South Wayne Elementary. We all have heard the stories of how public school teachers use their own personal money to pay for classroom items, so we figured that would be the case at South Wayne, too. Probably bulletin board decorations, crayons and tissues, was my thought, to be perfectly honest.
We contacted the principal (a dynamo, Brenda West; just the sort of compassionate and creative soul you would want overseeing your staff or students). Brenda told us that they do try to keep a small fund for teachers to use for ‘extras’, but it’s never enough, of course. And then she shared the three top items teachers had purchased with those funds last year: shoes, underwear and socks for students.
Think on that.
Grade school children whose basic needs are unmet.
Many of the families are doing all they can, but their resources just don’t go far enough.
In the end, we created about 30 packages of items and experiences. Not sure whether this was going to work, we set up the displays and waited, hoped and prayed.
Trinity members came through in a big way. Thus far, we’re raised more than $4,300 for that teachers’ fund at South Wayne. That is going to buy a lot of socks, underwear and shoes for those students.
I truly didn’t know what to expect. I am so glad to be part of a community that supports teachers, students and families. I appreciate every one of our bidders and those who gave donations of items or cash. I am so proud to be part of a staff that pitches in and helps make things successful. I am so grateful to be reminded, almost daily, that we live in a good place where good things happen.
Summer days used to mean things slowed down at work, but that is not the case this year, at least not at Trinity. On top of several projects underway, we have nearly 100 Wellspring summer camp kiddos onsite every day. It’s fun to hear their voices and giggles. Somehow, hearing children’s laughter inside a big old church building makes my heart happy. It makes the building feel, literally, alive
Some of us recently toured the GE Campus and listened to the description of the amazing plans and hopes the community has for this abandoned industrial complex. Walking through the urban ruins gave us a chance to see the decrepit buildings in a way most of us never had a chance to observe. The company bowling alley still had shoes and scorecards, left behind whenever that final frame was bowled. It was a bit spooky, to see some of the signs of lives long gone.
It might be easy—too easy--- to envision our gorgeous building as it might look, abandoned and left to decay. Would future tour-takers know about the energy and activity that takes place here, every day? Would there be any remnant of those Wellspring children’s laughter? Or the commitment and dedication our staff pours into our work, day after day? Would someone peer into the shadows and envision the people who put together children’s worship bags and stuffed sermon letters into envelopes and printed weekly bulletins? What might echo in empty hallways? On this day, you can hear colleagues calling out to offer assistance or encouragement to each other. You can hear music from offices and conversations as small groups plan out opportunities for summer fun for the congregation. You can hear the soft whir of fans trying to stir the warm air that settles in some of the workspaces. The air handling is kind of funky because when our building was erected, no one envisioned the staff or the technology or the needs of today. We make it work . We modify. We make do. It’s all a process.
Whatever this building--- or any building--- holds, the most important thing it shelters is the humanity for a time under its roof. The souls who pour their limited time and precious energy into creating connections and opportunities, attending services and hosting events for members and neighbors are the real ‘lifeblood’ of Trinity. We’re all bound to one another through this experience as the body of Christ. It takes all of us. And since I’ve been listening to Hamilton, a phrase that comes to mind is, “oceans rise; empires fall…” and I see the inevitable cycle of creation and decay from a different viewpoint. I am just grateful to be a part of the creating. I am grateful I get to hear the laughter and the encouragement and the friendly voices that fill this space today.
How are you?
“Busy!” was probably your answer. (bonus points if you answered aloud) And it’s rarely said with gratitude, right?
Well, you’ve heard it before but I am saying it again: it isn’t the healthiest answer one could give.
Yes, we’re ALL busy. Life seems to be like that, right? Appointments and obligations and exercise classes and oil changes and haircuts… the list of “have to do” on our calendars gets longer all the time. And now it’s summer and we don’t want to waste a moment of the sunshine and warm weather and semi-vacation feel each day brings.
But what if we decided it wasn’t possible to “waste” a day? That whatever you did in the 24-hours we all have is exactly what you were supposed to be doing? Nothing wasted. You might look at a schedule full of housecleaning and chores and running children to dentist’s appointments as a day when ‘nothing got done,’ but what if you reframed it? What if you looked at that same day as a day when you were given the gift of showing up for your children’s well-being and an opportunity to create more peace and comfort inside your home? A time when you were allowed to gather the items your family needs to be well-fed and healthy for the coming week? All of the chores and errands are a type of service, aren’t they? Doing for others? If you managed to make one person’s life easier (spoiler alert: you did) and if you accomplished any tasks that benefited others’ lives (again: you did), then that day was not wasted. It was almost an offering to God, a thanksgiving for the people in your life. Does that change how you saw your day?
I am trying to re-frame this for myself, at home and at work. Sometimes we clean up messes we didn’t make, and sometimes someone else is cleaning up ours. Sometimes we’re invited to show a little patience and other times, we benefit from the grace of others. It’s all part of the dance, right? This dance of life?
I have a dear friend who talks about how to “orange” a situation. If you didn’t know what an orange was, how would you describe it? What would you do with it? Maybe it’s a toy, to toss to a child or a therapy ball to roll out the kinks in your sore feet. Whatever; you get the idea. A thing is not necessarily what we “know” it is. Nor is a situation. Nor is a person. I am trying, this week, to see people, places and things as they could be, not as I already “know” they are. I’m out to “orange” this week. Check back to see if I managed to accomplish anything.
One sure sign of summer’s warmer weather is the increase of activity along Wayne Street outside Trinity. People walking for exercise, leading dogs on leashes, heading to a business or other destination: it’s a bustling place. Occasionally I get to take my lunch break out in the Cloister Garden. I enjoy it, partly because I feel like I can observe without being observed----eavesdrop on conversations as friends walk by, listen to the radio music enjoyed by the crews working on our Chapel, spot the local legends like the skateboarding trombone player (yes, I have seen him!).
The garden offers a serenity that is hard to match other places. Thanks to Sue Foreman, it is lush and lovely, with different scents wafting on the breeze. The soaring steeple and statue of St. Francis add religious iconography to remind me I’m at a church. It’s a rare opportunity to be present, unplugged and ‘in the moment.’
My professional background started in journalism (television news, to be precise), where daily deadlines ruled my schedule. Newsrooms are noisy places and there is very little ‘down’ time. I am still a bit of an adrenaline junkie, at least in terms of mental aerobics. I have a hard time sitting with a quiet mind. I want to know what other people are doing, what they are saying, whom they are seeing. Our workdays around here are fairly busy: there is never “nothing” to do. But sometimes that cacophony of “other people’s voices” gets awfully loud. I can sometimes focus on the noise instead of what we’re trying to do.
If your only experience with “church” is that it is quiet, and peaceful--- well, you aren’t here during most weekdays! It’s a vibrant, energetic place of ideas and collaboration and shared approaches to addressing challenges and solving problems. I bet your day is a lot like mine: people needing your attention, phone calls, e-mails, texts, assignments, deadlines…. There is never a lack of need, so the rare opportunity to sneak out into the sunshine and breathe in the peace of the garden is a real day-changing, mind-altering experience. I commend the invitation to you: if it fits your schedule one day this summer, bring a sack lunch and come sit in the garden. Breathe. Listen.
That still, small voice you hear there just may be your own.
I don’t know if everyone has been going full-tilt, as my mother would say, but life has been very busy around here lately.
Every morning (almost), I start my day by spending some time on my treadmill. It’s a chance for me to be active , but not have to concentrate too hard, so I can go over my day’s calendar in my head.
More and more, the agenda includes reaching out and responding to people who’ve been interested in something going on at Trinity. Recently, I’ve met with people associated with the United Way, Arts United, the Center for Congregations, Amani Family Services, Big Brothers-Big Sisters, the Downtown Improvement District, City of Fort Wayne, the United Negro College Fund, Fort Wayne United and several other groups working to improve our community.
The weekly Race Dialogue on Wednesday evening has been an eye-opener in so many ways—and though my own family is transracial, I have been humbled to find that I, too, have much to learn about life for those who do not look like me in our community.
I’ve gone on “field trips” to Heart of the City Mission Church, to see how they try to meet basic needs for people in their neighborhood, including food, clean clothing and the assurance that someone cares.
Recently, Kierstin Kellermeyer and I visited with the folks at Windrose Urban Farm, over on Lafayette. The nondescript blue building houses a mushroom growing operation, the likes of which I have never seen. Who knew mushrooms could be so interesting? But listening to the manager, Chris Knipstein, talk about the medicinal and nutritional properties of the mushrooms (which are almost beautiful when you start looking at them) it was hard not to be engaged. Perhaps a unique aspect of the business is that it operates as an employment program for young adults with autism and other developmental challenges. I will definitely be looking for their produce and their soups at the Barr Street Market this summer (which starts this Saturday!).
Blue Oyster Mushrooms growing in the fruiting chamber at Windrose Urban Farm
I guess I just want to share with you all how many people and how many types of people are in and out of this building and in and out of our social circles on any given week at Trinity. In every case, I am confident that we see in each other the eyes of Jesus, as we make our way through life in the center of a very busy downtown community.