Once I turned 25 years old, each birthday seemed to arrive more quickly. When I mention anything about age to someone older than me, the response is often “oh, it’s just keeps getting faster.” No! That’s scary. But, even though some days it didn’t feel like this, overall I do feel like the last three years have flown by.
Saturday is my 28th birthday. As I get closer to 30, more scary thoughts try to creep into my head. I always thought that your 30’s were when life got really great, you had your stuff together. You start to make some money, relationships are generally figured out or at least you know what you want and don’t, things just seem to be on track. Well.. most of that is true for me. Ha. I’m not rolling in the dough but I have a fun and important job with nice people, I have true friends and meaningful relationships, and we’re all mostly healthy. Sure, more money would be nice, but I can effortlessly still say life is great.
It’s easy when we think about our lives to try and act like we know what it should be. I have to remind myself that it’s not up to me. I’ve already been shown this once when I thought I was meant to move away for a job but God had other plans. And, sometimes, it’s not what we think it should be. I say it a lot- I really do believe we all end up on the path we should be on and where God’s plan directs us. I’d love to hear any stories where you’ve experienced this.
I keep journals and I feel like every year when I write on my birthday, I have a lot to reflect on and I say ‘this was a big year for me.’ This year is no exception. Among a lot of things, I made a career change and left what I was previously so passionate about and invested in. I guess every year is big. And God had it planned all along.
I’m taking this birthday as a time to relax and spend quality time with my mother, unplugged and undisturbed about what is next. It’s not up to me anyway.
April is a powerful month, I think. If you’re into astrology, you may believe some of the most loyal and loving (sometimes stubborn but I think the better word is just ‘determined’) people were born this month. It’s rained a lot this month and I think we are all ready for more clear skies. I’m glad you’re entering the next year of life with me and I wish you as much happiness, love and gratitude as I feel, especially this week.
I’ve had moments where I have felt so small in this big world. Still, it’s always amazing to me when we’re reminded how small the world can be. Whether it’s running into someone you haven’t seen in years to find out they live just down the street from you or being in the same room as someone you met in a totally different context in another time in life. Yesterday, I found myself with two women I met when working in the news industry. I interviewed them while they were going through a seriously tough situation. Then, maybe around a year later, we found ourselves in a new place, tilting our heads at each other as if to say “wait, I know you.”
At the time of our first encounter, the couple was feeling like outcasts in their community. Their family was hurt and heartbroken. I don’t think they knew (who could?) that in the months to come they would decide to leave and get away from it all. (Note- it wasn’t Fort Wayne but nearby.) They felt like it was just too much to take. Really, they lost faith in their neighbors. At the same time, unknowingly, I was crawling toward emotions relating to my job which I loved that I hadn’t expected to reach either.
About two months ago they decided to move back to Indiana, but this time to Fort Wayne. While getting everything back on track, they’ve found themselves needing someone with them in that journey. Then they discovered Trinity. They aren’t members and haven’t been here before but somehow heard about our care and love for our neighbors. They came to talk with someone about food. There they heard we would be filling Dignity Bags, stocked bags of personal hygiene products we give to our partners at Wellspring, and that we would be filling them in a couple days. So, they decided to come help. The mentality was you were there for me, I would like to repay that and to be there for you.
As we caught up, we shared our stories of how we ended up at Trinity. Though everything isn’t exactly perfect, these two women are pushing forward and things are looking up. The future looks brighter for them and you could feel their determination and positivity. They were surprised to see I wasn’t in news anymore and we talked about how that happened and the effect the decision has had on me. All of it circled back to one simple thought: life happens as it should and I was meant to end up here. So were they.
I’m so glad that Trinity’s mission isn’t a secret. We were just featured in Fort Wayne Magazine discussing some of the work we do. As great as that was, seeing two people from the past find us from another town and come here to trust in us is even better. We care about our neighbors and I think they care about us.
What is on your mind? How can Trinity be a better neighbor for you? As the new season is closer than ever, new beginnings are so close. Let’s get there together.
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